Work In Progress

The feelings of a drifter

Most of the time I feel so insecure.
It’s like, no matter what I do, it’s always not enough or it’s bound to fail.
I’ve always been envious of the people who always appear to be awesome no matter what they do.
It’s like they were meant to do great things while I will be doomed to failure.
There’s always someone better than me and there will be someone else who’ll be better than those better than me.
So does that make me someone who’s at the bottom?

My negativity is always overwhelming.
I don’t trust myself as the people I’ve surrounded myself with my whole life don’t seem to trust my abilities either.

They say we should learn to love ourselves.
I love myself, but I just can’t think of myself doing great things.

Perhaps my words here are the most sincerest I could ever say in my whole life.
I’ve disguised myself as someone who appears both clueless and deep. But in truth, I know things… and I’m very shallow.

Sometimes I ask no one in particular, about why am I not like those famous people.
Are they born to do that? Are they made?
Even if the answer is the latter, why is it that I never got to experience something like that in my lifetime?

Someone once did a palm reading for me and said I’ll be plagued with distractions all my life.
I looked back to the path I’ve taken and realized the truth in the reading.
I’m never serious enough, or I don’t have that much dedication.
I’m too shallow… and too careless.
I don’t know myself even if I’m supposed to be the one who knows about myself most.
Maybe that’s why I’ll forever be an unknown drifter.

Murphy’s Law

It has the best timing ever!

It’ll happen at the exact moment you wish it wouldn’t!

It’s only a few more days to temporary freedom.

Even so, the temporary freedom is relatively shorter this year because of my OJT.

If that’s not enough, I still don’t know where my OJT will be. I tried to chase BBDO but it must be out of my grasp.

Ah the woes of a third year University student.

Old school

It’s strikes me as to how old school things like songs, games, movies, and even animes still have that click that the recent entertainment doesn’t have. What we have now is great graphics… that’s all. Perhaps it is an unjust generalization… as all generalizations are. But there’s something lacking nowadays. A something that I personally can’t grasp at the moment.

Meaning? Logic?

Whatever it is. Wouldn’t it be better if we have that along with the artistic achievements technology has made possible through the years? Maybe people are focusing more on the face value that what’s important is being ignored.